Everything You and I Could Have Been If We Weren't You and I by Albert Espinosa

Author:Albert Espinosa [Albert Espinosa]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: urn:ean:9788425353543
Publisher: Penguin Random House Grupo Editorial
Published: 2010-07-29T04:00:00+00:00

11

ACCEPTING UNWANTED LOVE BEFORE LOSING IT AND WANTING IT

I knew what I had just proposed wasn’t going to be easy, since it was a very secure complex, but there was something about that stranger... I don’t know if it was the look of that kid taking shelter beneath the red rain or those pentagonal planets or the way he told me that it was important for me to meet the girl at the Teatro Español.

The boss started to pull maps out of the safe and explain various possibilities. Dani listened attentively while I thought about the girl at the theater.

I already knew that my opinion wasn’t important to the escape plan: I’ve always known my limitations. I think that is my greatest achievement: knowing what is beyond me, either from a lack of intelligence or a lack of interest.

Why did the stranger say that the girl at the Teatro Español was so important in my life? I thought about it while they decided on strategies. Why had I felt such an intense feeling for her? If only fear hadn’t overtaken me and I had dared to ask the stranger more questions.

That stranger had something fascinating about him. Curiously, he reminded me of the fascination my mother awoke in those who watched her choreographies or who simply found themselves in her presence.

Dani had remained totally silent until he understood the entire plan and our intentions.

“But, where will we take him?” he pointed out. “I mean, if we manage to get him out of here, where will we take him to? They won’t stop until they find him.”

“We aren’t going to hide him,” declared the boss. “We are only going to free him.”

“But what if...” Dani had trouble getting the words out. “What if he is a stranger, shouldn’t we keep an eye on him?”

I hesitated, wondering if I should tell them what I had seen. Tell them about the red rain, the pentagonal planet. Dissipate their doubts about his origins. But I feared that that would make them change their minds.

“Help us, Dani,” I said. “Trust me.”

Dani had never failed me; as soon as I met him I knew that he would help me.

Dani was in love with me; I knew it from the first time we saw each other. My mother taught me from a very young age to accept that the feelings others have for us, even if they are not mutual, are important.

“You should understand that that unwanted love, that unreciprocated desire, is a great gift,” she told me on a long train trip from Barcelona to Paris. “Don’t disdain it simply because it isn’t useful to you.”

I was very young and I didn’t understand her. I never understood her. She, on the other hand, had experienced those loves she spoke of. Many people had been in love with her. Her dance, her way of moving, her choreographies awakened all types of passions, among which were love and sex.

Since I was a young boy, I saw how she dealt affectionately with those who were in love with her, even though she felt nothing for them.

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